The pain of loss and the hope that you might come after me. I'm stupid, I'm in love with you and I'm stupid to think you might follow after me once your well. Then again dreams have a habit of becoming reality from time to time. Now I have to fight pass my own pain. I couldn't handle those words you said to me. Those words 'I love you but I'm not in love with you' Then the rest. I want you to fight. I want you to get well. Once you start to fight. I will fight with you. Jacob Holcomb you are my best friend in the world. You have been for the past 15 years. I hope you come after me. I hope you love me more than your desires for something you can't ever have.....cause I love you. I will be a little soul sick without you.
I can't save you cause you put up this bridge where I can no longer look in the eyes of our friends in S.A. without crying.
but I want you to fight..
I love you
Court
You're not stupid. I am. I love you more than anyone or anything in the whole world. I would give up everything to have you back again, Courtney. My desires are foolish, but you are the sanity in my life. I understand if you can't forgive me right now, but I still love you, and I'm willing to give up every dream and fantasy I've ever had to try to win you back.
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