Who I can trust

The question of who I can trust has been bugging me lately. I've been haunted by the images of the past few years. Every time I have spoken my mind someone has written me off, fallen in love with someone else, or fate takes them away. I'm starting to think something I read about Queen Elizabeth I of England. She told no one anything. It is best to seek advice in one's soul, one's gut, one's inner feeling. After all that inner feeling saved my life even if it cost me my soul. Now that feeling is telling me to take a few chances again. Risk a little, funny thing is now that I'm ready to let go, Shaun who so badly wanted a chance to date me isn't here. His loss not mine. My heart is wanting or seeking something. I have finally come to terms with a cold hard fact. I'm tied to no one. I can go where I need to go, Be who I want to be. NO one owes me. I don't have to tell anyone about anything. That's an interesting feeling. At times I feel alone and mourn the loss of the one who was everything, but I now understand this had to happen. He couldn't hold a moonbeam in his hand. He didn't really want to try. He was more worried about his needs not 'Our' needs